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fan_eunice) wrote2008-08-04 03:43 pm
fan_eunice) wrote2008-08-04 03:43 pm
Entry tags:
vid blather
Almost Vividcon means navel gazing about vidding!
I'm thinking about process today, and how the way I vid almost entirely from the gut and without a storyboard makes it a lot like putting together a puzzle without looking at the picture on the box first for me. And let me stop for a moment to glare with deep envy at vidders who can storyboard and work out what the bigger picture is beyond a subject and a feeling when they start. I hate you. A lot. Anyway, what always amazes me is how quickly a vid starts to come together once I get a few key clips in place, regardless of how much black space there is. I think if we're still going with the puzzle thing, it's like putting the edge pieces together first. Once those are there I can work inward from the frame, and have a good idea of 'oh, this needs a piece that has a tab on that side and is dark with a squiggly pattern' which leads to being able to find the piece that goes with that one, and so on, until the picture starts to look clearer and I wonder why on earth I couldn't see it before because it's so obvious what it's meant to be (and then start the timing issues and the wondering if I'm saying it right, but whatever, my angst has layers, man).
Where I get hung up for days or weeks or months at a time is attempting to mash together middle pieces that don't fit with no anchor to even know how or why it's wrong. I'm not quite sure how to go about making those 'end pieces' easier to identify for the future, but I think if I can remember that what feels impossible will absolutely start feeling less so once they're found, it might make it easier to keep looking for them. Or to let go of trying to keep worrying at one section where it's obvious I don't yet have one, and try to find the key clip for another instead. Yes, I was the kid who would sit there with my puzzles for hours and hours crying in frustration and trying to pound two pieces together with my fist because they looked like they should fit, instead of just accepting that they didn't go together, and then screaming that it just wasn't fair, and chucking the whole box across the room. I should probably have a bit more maturity now. A little. One would hope. I'll get on that.
This is also why I should probably never write fic. My early drafts would be half sentences with the plot points out of order and large chunks where I'd wave a hand and go "well, something goes there, I'm sure." I don't even want to think about the kind of tantrums I could throw if I had to outline to get something done.
I'm thinking about process today, and how the way I vid almost entirely from the gut and without a storyboard makes it a lot like putting together a puzzle without looking at the picture on the box first for me. And let me stop for a moment to glare with deep envy at vidders who can storyboard and work out what the bigger picture is beyond a subject and a feeling when they start. I hate you. A lot. Anyway, what always amazes me is how quickly a vid starts to come together once I get a few key clips in place, regardless of how much black space there is. I think if we're still going with the puzzle thing, it's like putting the edge pieces together first. Once those are there I can work inward from the frame, and have a good idea of 'oh, this needs a piece that has a tab on that side and is dark with a squiggly pattern' which leads to being able to find the piece that goes with that one, and so on, until the picture starts to look clearer and I wonder why on earth I couldn't see it before because it's so obvious what it's meant to be (and then start the timing issues and the wondering if I'm saying it right, but whatever, my angst has layers, man).
Where I get hung up for days or weeks or months at a time is attempting to mash together middle pieces that don't fit with no anchor to even know how or why it's wrong. I'm not quite sure how to go about making those 'end pieces' easier to identify for the future, but I think if I can remember that what feels impossible will absolutely start feeling less so once they're found, it might make it easier to keep looking for them. Or to let go of trying to keep worrying at one section where it's obvious I don't yet have one, and try to find the key clip for another instead. Yes, I was the kid who would sit there with my puzzles for hours and hours crying in frustration and trying to pound two pieces together with my fist because they looked like they should fit, instead of just accepting that they didn't go together, and then screaming that it just wasn't fair, and chucking the whole box across the room. I should probably have a bit more maturity now. A little. One would hope. I'll get on that.
This is also why I should probably never write fic. My early drafts would be half sentences with the plot points out of order and large chunks where I'd wave a hand and go "well, something goes there, I'm sure." I don't even want to think about the kind of tantrums I could throw if I had to outline to get something done.