I don't know if this is a helpful comment or not but, going with a previous post about how you sometimes need an ass-kicking...

I mean, everyone deserves a good self-pity wallow from time to time and you are more deserving than most but, I can't help but think that if, Spaghetti Monster forbid, the worst happens, instead of feeling like this is a justifiable use of your time, you will be kicking yourself losing the good days to worrying about the bad.