I just, recognized...things. I'm not a gamer really so I came into it with no knowledge of these guys. But like there's a whole section one of the dudes they are profiling who had a successful indie game release talking about how the actual release was so difficult emotionally despite incredibly good reviews and how he got into a loop of obsessively finding and responding to nearly every single review of his game because they weren't 'getting' it, even though they really liked playing it?

And I was like, oh, oh honey NO...as it went over the reputation he built as a pendantic asshole because of it, because at the same time as I would have reacted 'oh my god you pendantic asshole' had I been reading his endless comments at people...OH BOY DO I EVER understand the impulse that drove him to do it and how even a good response can sometimes be just as anxiety producing as a bad one.

And we're not even going to talk about the one dude who is so twisted up in his own process that he can't even get to a finished game because...that shit is brutal.

It's also very much about the good parts of the creative process! And that also made me cry, because that was the 'and this is why you do it anyway even though it costs so much' in equal parts because I know that feeling too, and because I have doubts I'll ever have it again.