...and I ramble

[fan_eunice]

Am going over almost finished vid of past, and yeah, I think I'm going to finish it. Am also remembering intensely why I do love Rose so much. One of the frustrating things for me about...all this fandom crap, is that when it comes down to it Rose the character was the thing that drew me in to New Who. It was the Doctor who then made me fall in love with the whole universe, but it was Rose who made me fall in love with companions, which was my starting point. Without her, I probably wouldn't have watched long enough to fall for the Doctor and what all that led to. And I love her for that. So much. So the thing is, when I hit fandom and I kept reading all this stuff that implied that people like me didn't love Rose because I didn't 'ship her in a specific way, or because I found that Rose was the just the first, but not the only one to show me how the role of companion was to mash all sorts of buttons of mine...it hurt. Probably more than it should have, it's only fandom after all, right? Thing of it is, it's sort of childish for me to then be "Well, fine, who needs Rose ANYWAY, you can have her." which I find myself doing more than I really want to. I just..want to be in a place where Rose is again part of my big whomping companion love, that Doctor/Rose is one more playground to explore the Doctor/Companion dynamics I find so compelling. It bothers me that, although the fandom stuff is not what stalled my Rose vid (I was still in my bubble of one when I was making it), it was actually a factor when I dusted it off this morning and wondered about finishing it. It shouldn't be. So, I'm going to do my best to not let it be. Thus endeth my ramble.

Also, new Supernatural tonight that I am home for, so yay other show to talk about too! I kinda want to post about Pushing Daisies, but I"m not sure what to say other than that I am utterly charmed by it, maybe next week? I also have a Heroes post rambling somewhere in my head that just hasn't yet gelled into a real post.