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[fan_eunice]

Well, that quit smoking attempt lasted about 34 hours. No Funyuns for me dammit. ::sob:: My conviction that this is something I must do has not lessened though, so I'm evaluating what went wrong this time to adjust for the next quit attempt. Mostly it boils down to that scene from Airplane! that goes 'I picked the wrong week to quit smoking'. But also, I didn't do enough pre-quit prep work, thinking OMG CANCER would be enough on it's own to break through the addictive lying brain. It wasn't. So first things first is adjusting habits. I'm only smoking outside from now on to break all associations with most of my daily activities (and this is where I get slammed the worst...unthinkingly reaching for my pack while on the computer brings on immediate MASSIVE cravings, even though I wasn't really thinking about smoking before I realized the pack wasn't there to grab). Stepping down intake as well, though just moving it outside should help with that on it's own. The less I'm smoking the easier it will be to take the last steps. I'm thinking now my actual quit date will be surgery day. The first few days of not smoking are always the worst, and in that case I will be in the hospital/at least partially immobile/on really good drugs through a lot of that. It's also a very definitive before/after type of event, that I think will be of great help psychologically. That's the plan anyway. One way or another I'll be a non-smoker. Not quitting is simply not an option.