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Am I back? I don't know if I am. I know I don't want to give up this space and this community, though I'm still not sure if that is possible. There have been some things in the last few days that give me some hope that I might. I keep trying to figure out what to say, because I have been feeling deeply hurt and frustrated...and don't assume you know why on either "side"...fuck, the fact that there is a frame of "sides" at all is part of the reason I've got one foot out the door of fandom right now.

I guess, this is what I want to say. Your needs are important. My needs are important. This persons needs are important. Practical realities are important. Sometimes context really doesn't matter, but other times it really does.

All of these things can be and often are in conflict with each other and the best we can do is to be mindful that life is NOT simple. Sometimes there is no one 'right' way or 'right' answer, and that shit gets messy. Try to keep in mind the paragraph above this when it does.

That is all.

Kittens will not be used as currency

Okay, who wants to contemplate a bit of fun?

As much as I love Club Vivid, I'm not gonna be able to dance this year. This would be sad, because as crappy a dancer as I am, I do love my yearly drunken awkward shuffle. And I had this mental image of me sitting there on the sidelines half-heartedly waving a glowstick with a little cloud of doom over my head (it would still be raining glitter though, it is CVV after all).

And then I thought, but wait! I have an IDEA! Who is up for a poker game in the Comet room during CVV? It could be a sort of ongoing thing with people changing in and out at the table as they go back to dance or admire cleavage or whatever. I think I would feel less sad about the not dancing if I also had something to do in addition to hanging out on the chairs in the dance room. In fact, I think when I did hang out on the chairs it would include much more vigorous and cheerful glowstick shaking if I did. I still kinda want the cloud of raining glitter though.

So, poker? Anyone? I'll be sure to bring chips and sodapop.

Also, ::ducks head:: um...jarrow? Can you teach me how to play poker again?

(obvs I will be rather easy to beat, if that is an incentive for any of you)