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Why hello mood swings, I'm actually feeling slightly more optimistic this morning, and have decided my weirdo systemic symptoms could very well be paraneoplastic syndrome and not definitive evidence of metastases. It's rare, yes, but my whole presentation is very Unique Snowflake, so why the hell not? The hives are my best evidence in favor, because it's such an obvious autoimmune response. And I do already have a history of autoimmune so I'd be more likely to have such a response than Joe Cancer Patient. I still can't quite shake feeling like they are probably going to come back with the worst possible diagnosis on Monday, but I'm not in the blind, angry panic I was yesterday because I've managed to find a reason why it might not. It's amazing what a possibility will do to improve your mood. Sometimes Google actually is your friend.
MRI in a few hours, and the pelvic later today. Since I am seeing my GP for the pelvic, I'm going to ask her for a Xanax prescription. I weaned off it when I went on the Klonipin, because I was no longer having daily anxiety spikes of the crippling variety once the overall anxiety was managed. That is not so true anymore. The longer this part (the not knowing exact staging and diagnosis) goes on, the more insane I get.
MRI in a few hours, and the pelvic later today. Since I am seeing my GP for the pelvic, I'm going to ask her for a Xanax prescription. I weaned off it when I went on the Klonipin, because I was no longer having daily anxiety spikes of the crippling variety once the overall anxiety was managed. That is not so true anymore. The longer this part (the not knowing exact staging and diagnosis) goes on, the more insane I get.