fan_eunice | Doctor Who 5x07 -- Amy's Choice

Did I say thoughts? I meant I would have thoughts if I weren't sitting here with TOO MANY OF THEM, and no way of settling on which train I want to follow. *waves hands around vaguely in that direction and that direction and that one*

And. And. I am glad to see the Era of Emo is over, but I am even gladder that it does not mean that the Doctor is not still one fucked up little puppy. OH MY GOD HE IS SO FUCKED UP. Because, he really is. And somehow it's actually more painful to me this way, with creepy little manifestation of his subconscious and in the dream choices he created and the bits of self loathing and awareness, than any time he's flat out broken down or lost his shit in the past (though that gets me too, not gonna lie). Like, with that I can think...he just needs a cuddle and some tea. This? How do you even *start* to fix this? Oh, my Doctor. *pets him*

Possibly the healing could begin with a threesome...on account of there is my (second) OT3 VALIDATED ALL OVER THE DAMN PLACE TOO. These are my shipper hands waving madly and drawing little hearts all over the three of them in all possible combinations.

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Date: 2010-05-15 09:01 pm (UTC)

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fannishnonsense

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OMG, SO MANY THOUGHTS! I've already written two posts about this crazy, wonderful episode and I think I have even more things to say that I haven't even worked out yet. Just, OMG.

Date: 2010-05-15 09:08 pm (UTC)

fan_eunice

DUUUUUUUUUUUUUUDE. Wow, just. Wow. I don't think I'm ever going to have proper words for this one. I think this is the first time in a long time that I'm staring at the Doctor thinking 'Wow, it really sucks to be you'...and I don't actually mean it sarcastically.

*flails*

Date: 2010-05-15 09:12 pm (UTC)

*flails with you* I mean, I knew he was messed up. Everyone knows that, really. But now I really feel how completely and utterly fucked in the head he is. And OMG, what can you even do about that? What does he even do, except keep going on and doing the best he can? Just, OMG Doctor.

Date: 2010-05-15 09:15 pm (UTC)

DOCTOR. Pumpkin. I just...I want to buy him things or something. Or make silly faces at him to make him laugh? Maybe get him drunk? I don't even know. *waves hands around*

*sends him off to skinny dip in the pool with Amy and Rory*

That should help a little, right?

Date: 2010-05-15 09:18 pm (UTC)

Get him drunk and make faces at him and show him pictures of kittens and puppies. And then send him off with Amy and Rory. And River. Poor guy needs it. *hugs him*

Date: 2010-05-15 09:56 pm (UTC)

From: (Anonymous)

I am, for the first time since Eleventh Hour, completely a-squee and thrilled. Moffat hasn't forgotten that the Doctor is completely screwed up after all.

I bet all the Valeyard fans are pissing themselves with glee.

Date: 2010-05-15 09:58 pm (UTC)

neadods

That was me - thought I was logging in at the same time, but DW apparently thought not.

Date: 2010-05-15 10:51 pm (UTC)

Huh, I guess I never thought he did forget. There was more than enough hinted at in the previous episodes for me, and I really like that Eleven is...I dunno...subtle about the ways in which he is messed up, and that he's been very obviously making a real effort not to make the same mistakes in how he deals with his own pain and his companions.

I'm not sure I would have wanted to dig in deep enough to see how *much* of a struggle that was before now, because it would have lessened the impact for me. And, even here, it takes an external force to bring it out and within that, he's still doing his level best to suck it up and deal and to cause as little harm as possible in the process.

Date: 2010-05-16 12:12 am (UTC)

One of the things that attracted me to Nine was his self-doubt; one of the things that turned me off on Ten was his hubris and his unwillingness to see things he didn't want to acknowledge. It's punched all kinds of happy buttons that Eleven isn't just damaged, but knows it and is a bit worried about it.