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I honestly have no idea what I'm going to do if there is a great fannish scattering. I don't have any other journals and just the thought of trying to track everyone down and set everything up all over again is overwhelming to the point of panic. This is not the kind of thing I deal with well, and right now it's feeling a whole lot like fandom as I know it is about to just...dissapear. I'm being overly whiny emo about this, I know...but I *just* started poking my head out again and participating and talking to people I didn't already know for the first time in a long time recently. Of course I had to pick right before all of fandom went BOOM in multiple ugly ways to do it. I don't want to go back in the hidey hole, I'm just not sure that isn't what's going to happen by default and it's freaking me out.