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*yawns and slurps down coffee*

Morning, y'all! More festivid watching today (curtailed yesterday on account of living in the mountains means some days my internet bounces like a motherfucker, making it difficult to watch anything that streams)

Also, I take back every confused and suspicious thing I ever said about Tumblr. It's made of kittens. Literally.

And between festivids and Tumblr, I'm starting to put a finger on what my damage is regarding fandom lately. What I have missed, really missed was interacting with the sources that brought me to fandom in the first place. I have a hard time with one on one interaction with people. I have an even harder time with complex social groups. Fandom became a way in precisely because it allowed me to approach those things sideways, through this other thing we were doing. Like, you know how toddlers make friends by playing with toys side by side? I never outgrew that phase. I love that it's allowed me to make the kinds of human connections and close friends I wouldn't have otherwise. I don't want to give those up, and it would be really nice to have more! Doesn't change who I am or my brain, though...and fandom as a primarily social space, and all that comes with that, really kinda doesn't work for me.

tl;dr...I need to vid/watch vids more, look at pretty pictures more, read more fic and just...lose myself in it. 'Cause it's fun.