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You guys. I have just finished season 1 of Haven and I AM NOT OKAY. Please to be following behind the cut to avoid spoilerings.
WHAT THE FUCKING FUUUUUUUUCK?!? And why will I probably not have any of season 2 for at least a few hours, because none of this is okay. At all.
*bursts into tears*
I am a MESS. The Audrey reveal is messing with my head hardcore, and I just. I love Audrey, okay. I fucking love her and her competence and her compassion and her badassery and her snark and everything about her. Girl gets shit done and looks smoking hot while doing it. And now she doesn't even know who she is, or why, and neither do I and this is not okay.
And oh god, Nathan. Y'all, that thing? That he does with his face? When he's in pain? It does things to me. I have spent most of this season wanting to wrap him in warm blankies and feed him cocoa and tell him to rest his head on my nonexistent breasts so that I may pat his head and say 'there, there' a lot. His daddy issues were already killing me, okay? I am to the point where I can barely deal with it when he has a freaking papercut and then they go and pull this? Crying on a fucking beach? DIRTY POOL, show. Not okay.
And Duke. What the hell. I had not realized just how attached I had become until the thing on the boat and the tattoo and I actually started hollering out loud at the screen "DON'T YOU DARE TOUCH HIM". Except it's all way more fucked up than even that, isn't it? So fucked up. Duke is so fucked, and it is making me very, very nervous and jumpy and upset...and this is not okay.
I AM VERY TENSE RIGHT NOW. AND UPSET. AND DID I MENTION TENSE? And I still have to wait for my torrent so I can find out what happens next. God, I need a drink. I should take up drinking.
Pleaseletthemallbeokay, pleasepleasepleaseplease.
WHAT THE FUCKING FUUUUUUUUCK?!? And why will I probably not have any of season 2 for at least a few hours, because none of this is okay. At all.
*bursts into tears*
I am a MESS. The Audrey reveal is messing with my head hardcore, and I just. I love Audrey, okay. I fucking love her and her competence and her compassion and her badassery and her snark and everything about her. Girl gets shit done and looks smoking hot while doing it. And now she doesn't even know who she is, or why, and neither do I and this is not okay.
And oh god, Nathan. Y'all, that thing? That he does with his face? When he's in pain? It does things to me. I have spent most of this season wanting to wrap him in warm blankies and feed him cocoa and tell him to rest his head on my nonexistent breasts so that I may pat his head and say 'there, there' a lot. His daddy issues were already killing me, okay? I am to the point where I can barely deal with it when he has a freaking papercut and then they go and pull this? Crying on a fucking beach? DIRTY POOL, show. Not okay.
And Duke. What the hell. I had not realized just how attached I had become until the thing on the boat and the tattoo and I actually started hollering out loud at the screen "DON'T YOU DARE TOUCH HIM". Except it's all way more fucked up than even that, isn't it? So fucked up. Duke is so fucked, and it is making me very, very nervous and jumpy and upset...and this is not okay.
I AM VERY TENSE RIGHT NOW. AND UPSET. AND DID I MENTION TENSE? And I still have to wait for my torrent so I can find out what happens next. God, I need a drink. I should take up drinking.
Pleaseletthemallbeokay, pleasepleasepleaseplease.
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Audrey is so great, isn't she? I just adore her--I wish I could be her, and/or I wish I could hang out with her and drink dirty martinis. And get an invite to her cupcake room. *g* Try not to worry, her badassery, competence, curiosity, smarts, and willingness/ability to roll with life's punches (even and especially the WEIRDO ONES) without freaking out will stand her in good stead in this crisis! Plus, she has friends, and they're there for her as she is for them. (And double plus, I really like where they go with Audrey the other one. *g*)
And OH GOD NATHAN. When Garland says that Haven and Nathan are "everything I got and everything I ever had," I just about cried. Not to mention when Nathan goes, "...Dad?" AAAAAAA. He is such a brave strong wounded woobie I can't even. It seems to me that he's very tender inside but he wishes he weren't/tries to pretend he isn't--he's a sensitive person who literally cannot feel. Nathan What Are You Doing To Me.
And Duke isn't fucked! (Well...not figuratively, anyway. :D ) But he certainly is digging into the margins of something that will become more important. He just can't leave well enough alone or stop asking questions (like Audrey in that way, I think). Like the dude version of Pandora, forever opening boxes. He spins it like he's only doing it because he's worried about himself, but what he says does not always mesh with what he *does*. *tousles his hair*
Oh, SHOW. <3
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he's a sensitive person who literally cannot feel.
POINTS AND FLAILS. Yes, yes he is.
Nathan What Are You Doing To Me.
OMG, his face. Nathan What Are You Doing To Me could be this show's motto.