My Show

[fan_eunice]

There are days when I am pretty sure I'm watching an entirely different show called Doctor Who than the one other people see. Like, maybe my copies are from an alternate universe? Or I'm inhabiting an entirely delusional bubble of some sort. Which, I've decided that's okay. I love my show. Mine is the one with the time traveller who has a big giddy crush on the entire human race and wanders about the universe getting in and out of trouble and is wonderful and flawed and sometimes has Big Emo Trauma issues, and species misunderstandings that cause him to mess up, but he's glorious just the same. And there's this whole group of amazing, strong, beautiful women (and some men) that he has loved, and more that he will love, and every single one of them has something unique and precious to offer, and I love them too. He's going through a rough patch right now, my Doctor, and sometimes I want to shake him 'till his teeth rattle, 'cause it doesn't work, trying not to love them as much as he does, he loves anyway, and it just means they leave sooner. They all leave, all of them, one way or another. But, oh, don't they just shine in that brief moment he gets to have them.? I can't see less love, limited love as the solution here. I can't. I won't. Doctor/Companion in all it's various permutations and complex, messy glory. That's my 'ship, and sometimes I want to see that as romantic, and sometimes I don't, and the show I watch lets me do it either way. 'Cause it's bigger than that. So much bigger. I think I'll keep my show, even if maybe I'm just watching it wrong. It makes me happy.