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I am once again way behind on my actively airing shows, at the moment in favor of marathoning all of The Pretender (which I had never seen) like it was crack. Which it kind of is. At this time I am basically living for the moments when Jarod reacts in a confused/wistful/sad way to common childhood experiences so I can clutch my heart and flail in an overly dramatic fashion. You would think after the millionth time of being reminded that Baby!Jarod never had that toy/holiday/food because he was locked in a cell as a science experiment, it would lose it's ability to cause me to collapse in OH THAT POOR LITTLE BOY tears. You would think, and you would be wrong. Basically the writers can feel free to return to that well as often as they want to, and be assured of striking a direct hit on my heart every time. Which is a good thing, because subtlety is not exactly their strong suit, so my cheapness on this point is satisfying for us both.
I did manage to watch the season premiere of Supernatural. I am sort of actively avoiding any fannish responses because I kind of loved it a lot. Sparkly hearts a lot. I am anticipating adoring season 9 at this point.
I find watching this show interesting in the sense that it highlights exactly how I watch my TV. 'Cause the thing is I actually agree with a great deal of the criticism that has been lobbed at both individual eps and SPN as a whole over the years. When that outweighed my emotional response/enjoyment of the characters/plots/whatever I just...didn't watch it. When it found the key to my heart through a complicated set of factors that set me to marathoning the whole thing with my new love goggles on...it's not that the things that are wrong stopped being that way. It's just that I have absolutely zero desire to focus on things I don't like. None. If a thing has found a way into my fannish heart, then things either get ignored or recontextualized in my head to play nicely with what I love about it. The point at which I can no longer do that is the point at which I usually just stop watching. SPN is odd in the sense that this process happened backwards, which mostly just gives me insight into how my fannish brain works, heh.
Anyhoo, I think it's kind of the reason I have become more and more hesitant to do the kind of episode reactions and discussions and whatnot that I used to do all the time. Like if I'm not actively including critical reactions along with squee, everyone on the internet will be judging my critical thinking/taste levels. Or when I react well to some crap thing because in my head I've pretzel twisted myself into a way to fit it into my love world without explicitly saying that I know it is crap, and this is why it is crap first. Just. I don't wanna.
And it's not that I don't think people who include a lot of criticism or explanations of what they didn't like are doing it wrong! That is totally valid. Fearing it means I am being Judged On The Internet for being too stupid/lacking taste to see what's wrong with stuff is my own personal issue. Which is dumb.
I did manage to watch the season premiere of Supernatural. I am sort of actively avoiding any fannish responses because I kind of loved it a lot. Sparkly hearts a lot. I am anticipating adoring season 9 at this point.
I find watching this show interesting in the sense that it highlights exactly how I watch my TV. 'Cause the thing is I actually agree with a great deal of the criticism that has been lobbed at both individual eps and SPN as a whole over the years. When that outweighed my emotional response/enjoyment of the characters/plots/whatever I just...didn't watch it. When it found the key to my heart through a complicated set of factors that set me to marathoning the whole thing with my new love goggles on...it's not that the things that are wrong stopped being that way. It's just that I have absolutely zero desire to focus on things I don't like. None. If a thing has found a way into my fannish heart, then things either get ignored or recontextualized in my head to play nicely with what I love about it. The point at which I can no longer do that is the point at which I usually just stop watching. SPN is odd in the sense that this process happened backwards, which mostly just gives me insight into how my fannish brain works, heh.
Anyhoo, I think it's kind of the reason I have become more and more hesitant to do the kind of episode reactions and discussions and whatnot that I used to do all the time. Like if I'm not actively including critical reactions along with squee, everyone on the internet will be judging my critical thinking/taste levels. Or when I react well to some crap thing because in my head I've pretzel twisted myself into a way to fit it into my love world without explicitly saying that I know it is crap, and this is why it is crap first. Just. I don't wanna.
And it's not that I don't think people who include a lot of criticism or explanations of what they didn't like are doing it wrong! That is totally valid. Fearing it means I am being Judged On The Internet for being too stupid/lacking taste to see what's wrong with stuff is my own personal issue. Which is dumb.
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