I have come to the conclusion that I may never be able to quit smoking if I keep vidding. I've been doing really well at restricting my smoking lately in anticipation of having another go at stopping all together (I made it six months last time!). Really well except for when I open Final Cut. All bets are off then since I seem to be incapable of so much as scrubbing through and marking an episode without chain smoking. I don't even realize I'm doing it. I just keep lighting and smoking them as I work until I look up and an entire pack is gone. My lungs do NOT thank me. But if I actively think about not having another cigarette I get distracted and antsy and completely unable to focus on the vidding. Nothing gets done until I either give up and do something else, or give in and turn into a chimney. Anywhere else I can just think 'no, not yet' and push the space between back. Argh.
Suggestions on how to break this pattern are really, really welcome. I'd really like to get to the point where I can seriously consider quitting again, and this is not helping.
Suggestions on how to break this pattern are really, really welcome. I'd really like to get to the point where I can seriously consider quitting again, and this is not helping.