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Oh my god, I am not going to do this to myself. I always do this to myself. There is that point in any vid after the initial gleeful clip chucking, but before the thing starts to come together, where I stare at the hot mess on my timeline and decide I suck harder than anyone has ever sucked in the history of vidding.
Somehow I can't get it through my head that this part of vidding is not about finishing yet. It doesn't matter if it gets finished. This part is about enjoying the process. If it takes a few days, fine. If it takes a few months, that is FINE TOO. The time to start worrying about whether it will be ready to send out into the rest of the world is not now. This part is not about you (even though I love you all to death). And if what ends up happening at the end is a crap vid, it doesn't matter to the part where I love doing it. I am allowed to suck and have fun. I am. The only person putting pressure on me to go faster, or to do it better is me. The internet at large is not going to shun me if I don't finish a vid, or if they hate the vid I finish.
Are you listening, self? LISTEN. Believe it. Because you are making yourself miserable for no good reason.
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Somehow I can't get it through my head that this part of vidding is not about finishing yet. It doesn't matter if it gets finished. This part is about enjoying the process. If it takes a few days, fine. If it takes a few months, that is FINE TOO. The time to start worrying about whether it will be ready to send out into the rest of the world is not now. This part is not about you (even though I love you all to death). And if what ends up happening at the end is a crap vid, it doesn't matter to the part where I love doing it. I am allowed to suck and have fun. I am. The only person putting pressure on me to go faster, or to do it better is me. The internet at large is not going to shun me if I don't finish a vid, or if they hate the vid I finish.
Are you listening, self? LISTEN. Believe it. Because you are making yourself miserable for no good reason.
This post has been brought to you by Eunice's big honking ISSUES.