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Okay, and the other reason I don't think I'll be hanging around designated support message boards much, and this is entirely fannish, is I don't speak their language and they don't speak mine. Fandom is my community, my creative outlet, my coping mechanism. Stories are how I get through crap. And I don't want to have to explain why getting a Mountie hat has suddenly become very important to me, or why I'd never wear any other shoes but my Chucks to a doctor's appointment. I want people who already understand why Mountie hats make you invincible, or Chucks mean you can't be caught if you have to run, and nod knowingly. And I really don't want to try to explain why, when I was scared and angry that I was so scared the other day, that changing my LJ name to "Joe Dick Eats Cancer For Breakfast" (and the conversation with ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
renenet that led to it) both made me laugh and made me feel stronger at the same time. But it did. Because that's who I am, and that doesn't change. I can't imagine not going into a fight, any fight, without these tools, and people who know how powerful they are. Ya know? I'm gonna continue calling my surgeon 'Dr. Wilson' in my head even though I haven't watched House myself in years, and I'm going to get through consultations with him because of it. And that's that. Though I am going to be in a bit of a bind when I meet my oncologist since I already have a Wilson. And no, I don't want a House even though he could probably fix me by the end of the hour.
renenet that led to it) both made me laugh and made me feel stronger at the same time. But it did. Because that's who I am, and that doesn't change. I can't imagine not going into a fight, any fight, without these tools, and people who know how powerful they are. Ya know? I'm gonna continue calling my surgeon 'Dr. Wilson' in my head even though I haven't watched House myself in years, and I'm going to get through consultations with him because of it. And that's that. Though I am going to be in a bit of a bind when I meet my oncologist since I already have a Wilson. And no, I don't want a House even though he could probably fix me by the end of the hour.