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Finally finished watching this season of Durham County. My brain is not quite up to fully going into it, but I do have a couple of thoughts
Well. First off, Mike Sweeney has finally managed to crack the massive hate on I have for him. It's a tentative peace, but I'm now willing to allow he may be on track to not being such an utter douchebag. And it came, as it only could, through Audrey and Sadie. Specifically two things...his apology to Audrey, and his confession to Sadie about what he knew about Lyssie. Because, oh my fucking god finally, there were no excuses. An acknowledgement of the fundamental weakness in his character and that it hurts people, stop. Good. It remains to be seen what he'll do with this, but I have hopes that I won't spend quite as much time in season 3 wanting to punch him in the face.
Sadie, oh brave Sadie. I think I could not love her more if I tried. I have...a lot of thoughts on her storyline in partiular that I can't quite articulate. About women and our place in this world, about how dead women don't matter, and what it costs us to learn that. I'm not sure knowing that the life of a young woman was expendable in the service of Mike's peace of mind is somehow better than if he had killed her. Different kind of cut, but you can still bleed out from it. Ray is the end point, but the slide down is so much more. About the courage to stand up in the face of that and say, yes, yes we fucking DO MATTER. And Pen being what can happen when we can't...which doesn't at all excuse Psychotic Baby Killer in the slightest, but oh that final scene when she hands Ray the razor fucking killed me on so many levels I have no words.
There's, like, a million more paragraphs picking all this apart jumbled up in my head. But. Wow. I sort of can't wait to see where they go with this in season 3. Sadie and Ray. Sadie and her father. Audrey and Mike (and thank you for not having them get back together this season, THANK YOU). It's a brutally exposed metaphor for so much and it hurts. And I think I finally get why I can't look away from this show, for as brutally twisted as it is. Because this is what it was doing all along and it refuses to flinch. Audrey, Nathalie, Tracy, Sadie, Pen, Lyssie, a young homeless woman with a broken leg, twisted bloody bodies in the woods. This.
I'm...gonna go curl up in a corner and cry for awhile now.
Well. First off, Mike Sweeney has finally managed to crack the massive hate on I have for him. It's a tentative peace, but I'm now willing to allow he may be on track to not being such an utter douchebag. And it came, as it only could, through Audrey and Sadie. Specifically two things...his apology to Audrey, and his confession to Sadie about what he knew about Lyssie. Because, oh my fucking god finally, there were no excuses. An acknowledgement of the fundamental weakness in his character and that it hurts people, stop. Good. It remains to be seen what he'll do with this, but I have hopes that I won't spend quite as much time in season 3 wanting to punch him in the face.
Sadie, oh brave Sadie. I think I could not love her more if I tried. I have...a lot of thoughts on her storyline in partiular that I can't quite articulate. About women and our place in this world, about how dead women don't matter, and what it costs us to learn that. I'm not sure knowing that the life of a young woman was expendable in the service of Mike's peace of mind is somehow better than if he had killed her. Different kind of cut, but you can still bleed out from it. Ray is the end point, but the slide down is so much more. About the courage to stand up in the face of that and say, yes, yes we fucking DO MATTER. And Pen being what can happen when we can't...which doesn't at all excuse Psychotic Baby Killer in the slightest, but oh that final scene when she hands Ray the razor fucking killed me on so many levels I have no words.
There's, like, a million more paragraphs picking all this apart jumbled up in my head. But. Wow. I sort of can't wait to see where they go with this in season 3. Sadie and Ray. Sadie and her father. Audrey and Mike (and thank you for not having them get back together this season, THANK YOU). It's a brutally exposed metaphor for so much and it hurts. And I think I finally get why I can't look away from this show, for as brutally twisted as it is. Because this is what it was doing all along and it refuses to flinch. Audrey, Nathalie, Tracy, Sadie, Pen, Lyssie, a young homeless woman with a broken leg, twisted bloody bodies in the woods. This.
I'm...gonna go curl up in a corner and cry for awhile now.