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I've been trying to figure a way to write up this weekend and finding it nearly impossible. On Friday morning during the first show of the con (History of Vidding), my phone kept vibrating in my pocket. When I checked my voicemail there was a message from my son, crying, as he asked me to call him back as soon as I could. This is how I found out that the back problems my dog had been having had taken a sudden turn for the worse and that he'd been put down during an emergency trip to the vet that morning. The vidshow going on during all of this? The Joy show. Because irony hates me or something.
It was actually a good thing Vividcon was going on right then. I was surrounded by people I love, and vids, and things to do that were distracting and shiny and full of squee, and this is how I dealt. I threw myself into the con as much as I could so I didn't have to think about it. Aside from a few minor breakdowns, mostly in private, and one embarassingly loud and public one in the hotel lobby on the final day, it worked. But it also makes a lot of the con one big blur in my head. More so than usual, I mean.
And I really can't thank those of you who were there enough. The ones who did know what was going on, and the ones who didn't. New friends I just met and old ones I've known forever, for being so awesome and full of life and fannish joy and amazing vids, and interesting conversation. I needed you right then. And you came through with sparkly hugs and kind words and alcoholic beverages. You made me laugh and dance and just were fandom at its very best.
At some point I want to talk about Cody, what he meant to me, what a good dog he was. I can't just yet. But he was loved, so much. And he will be missed, every day.
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sisabet and I led did not seem to suck, which was awesome. I don't exactly remember what I said, but no one threw things at us, everyone got to see sisabet's Final Suckdown vid, which I love more than pie, and we finally got to give away the emergency vidding gift bags we'd been working on (and do you know how hard it is not to post about spending days in vagabondage's kitchen making chocolate llamas while you are doing it?). And I was absolutely thrilled at the reception the auction vid I made for jackiekjono got. I was terrified of that vid and my ability to pull it off. The most important audience member for this vid, Jackie, had already given the thumbs up over a month ago, so I would've considered it a success no matter what. But still, having it play in a room full of people was nerve wracking as hell and you have no idea how big a sigh of relief I let out over that. I forgot what a good feeling that was, having a vid show for the first time to an actual live audience and having it go well.
So, yeah. I should have vid recs coming up soon and definitely some talking about various things I learned (color, OMG color!). And I think someone out there has to have a picture of the Free Hugs t-shirt and the picture of Teeny Tiny Tennant hugging The World's Cutest Eggplant. Share with me if you do.
Seriously, love to all of you who were there, and to Vividcon for being what it is. And love to you all who weren't, because you're awesome too.
It was actually a good thing Vividcon was going on right then. I was surrounded by people I love, and vids, and things to do that were distracting and shiny and full of squee, and this is how I dealt. I threw myself into the con as much as I could so I didn't have to think about it. Aside from a few minor breakdowns, mostly in private, and one embarassingly loud and public one in the hotel lobby on the final day, it worked. But it also makes a lot of the con one big blur in my head. More so than usual, I mean.
And I really can't thank those of you who were there enough. The ones who did know what was going on, and the ones who didn't. New friends I just met and old ones I've known forever, for being so awesome and full of life and fannish joy and amazing vids, and interesting conversation. I needed you right then. And you came through with sparkly hugs and kind words and alcoholic beverages. You made me laugh and dance and just were fandom at its very best.
At some point I want to talk about Cody, what he meant to me, what a good dog he was. I can't just yet. But he was loved, so much. And he will be missed, every day.
The I Suck panel
sisabet and I led did not seem to suck, which was awesome. I don't exactly remember what I said, but no one threw things at us, everyone got to see sisabet's Final Suckdown vid, which I love more than pie, and we finally got to give away the emergency vidding gift bags we'd been working on (and do you know how hard it is not to post about spending days in vagabondage's kitchen making chocolate llamas while you are doing it?). And I was absolutely thrilled at the reception the auction vid I made for jackiekjono got. I was terrified of that vid and my ability to pull it off. The most important audience member for this vid, Jackie, had already given the thumbs up over a month ago, so I would've considered it a success no matter what. But still, having it play in a room full of people was nerve wracking as hell and you have no idea how big a sigh of relief I let out over that. I forgot what a good feeling that was, having a vid show for the first time to an actual live audience and having it go well. So, yeah. I should have vid recs coming up soon and definitely some talking about various things I learned (color, OMG color!). And I think someone out there has to have a picture of the Free Hugs t-shirt and the picture of Teeny Tiny Tennant hugging The World's Cutest Eggplant. Share with me if you do.
Seriously, love to all of you who were there, and to Vividcon for being what it is. And love to you all who weren't, because you're awesome too.
