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Today I am officially the mother of a 20 year old. Not gonna lie, it makes me feel old...or more accurately it makes me feel like time is moving too fast. That thing I saw on Tumblr with the argument between kids born in the 80s and kids born in the 90s over whether the former are too 'old' to be on Tumblr doesn't help. Neither does this being the first year I've really noticed that nearly all the characters on tv are either younger than me, or the scattered few that aren't are a benchpoint I'll be quickly passing in the next few years. It's not that I thought it was untrue that women over 40 get disappeared in media before this. I think I just never felt it?

And I'm really uncomfortable with this growing sense that I'm not 'supposed' to find fun or escape in the same ways I always have. Like who I am radically changes because I'm approaching the magic number of No Fun Anymore, Ever. I don't actually mind getting older, never have (I do get freaked out by how fast it happens). I am starting to get annoyed at being seen as 'old' by how that's culturally defined.

Hrmf.