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So I've been fighting off a serious depressive swing both for stupid brain and other reasons...but that's boring.
What's not boring is that I've spent this time on the couch rewatching most of Buffy. God, I miss it, I really, really do. A few random observations from this rewatch,
1. Buffy/Spike/Angel, still my original OT3 and going just as strong as it ever was. More surprising to me is how much I am buying into the Buffy/Angel part of it. Back in the day it was the weakest link in my OT3dom which I grew to appreciate more as time went on, but never my first choice. This time out I'm all over the melodramatic pathos and passion of all the early stuff, and I can't say why. It still works best if in my head Spike is standing right there rolling his eyes and whacking them both upside the head with some well timed sarcasm when it gets too...too. But, yeah. I was, like, eating that shit up with a spoon along with my pint of depression ice cream.
2. Speaking of Buffy ships, the Riley storyline still kills me. I am of the (unpopular? maybe?) opinion that Riley very well could have been the long haul guy if he hadn't gotten in his own way. It's like he's in this vicious cycle where he's convinced himself how it's going to end and therefore reads everything through that lens, which convinces him that he was right which leads to even less confidence and that way lies back alley vampire prostitutes. Oh Riley, you and your adorable floppy hair. I'm glad he found his confidence and happiness elsewhere, but it really didn't have to end that way.
3. The seeds of Willow's self destruction are well and truly planted as early as season 1. I may have quibbles with the season 6 execution of some of it, but that path was not sudden, nor should it have been unexpected.
4. Most surprising of all, and I'm still trying to tease it out...wrap my brain around it. It's been years since I last watched season 6 in any concentrated capacity and...okay, when it aired I was not yet 30 and the mother of a 9 year old. And I was furious at Giles for leaving. Furious. And...I am now pushing 40 and the mother of a 20 year old who had an absolutely disastrous freshman year at college and...I get it now. I get it. Why he felt he had to leave and why he did. He wasn't nearly as wrong as I thought he was. I'm not sure what to do with that. I may need to post again about this when I do wrap my brain around it.
Possibly more random thoughts on Buffy that no one will care about coming at some point. Also, I have vids I need to be working on when I actually get off the couch. But, hey...went for an actual walk today and talked to another person, so maybe I'm coming out of it soon?
What's not boring is that I've spent this time on the couch rewatching most of Buffy. God, I miss it, I really, really do. A few random observations from this rewatch,
1. Buffy/Spike/Angel, still my original OT3 and going just as strong as it ever was. More surprising to me is how much I am buying into the Buffy/Angel part of it. Back in the day it was the weakest link in my OT3dom which I grew to appreciate more as time went on, but never my first choice. This time out I'm all over the melodramatic pathos and passion of all the early stuff, and I can't say why. It still works best if in my head Spike is standing right there rolling his eyes and whacking them both upside the head with some well timed sarcasm when it gets too...too. But, yeah. I was, like, eating that shit up with a spoon along with my pint of depression ice cream.
2. Speaking of Buffy ships, the Riley storyline still kills me. I am of the (unpopular? maybe?) opinion that Riley very well could have been the long haul guy if he hadn't gotten in his own way. It's like he's in this vicious cycle where he's convinced himself how it's going to end and therefore reads everything through that lens, which convinces him that he was right which leads to even less confidence and that way lies back alley vampire prostitutes. Oh Riley, you and your adorable floppy hair. I'm glad he found his confidence and happiness elsewhere, but it really didn't have to end that way.
3. The seeds of Willow's self destruction are well and truly planted as early as season 1. I may have quibbles with the season 6 execution of some of it, but that path was not sudden, nor should it have been unexpected.
4. Most surprising of all, and I'm still trying to tease it out...wrap my brain around it. It's been years since I last watched season 6 in any concentrated capacity and...okay, when it aired I was not yet 30 and the mother of a 9 year old. And I was furious at Giles for leaving. Furious. And...I am now pushing 40 and the mother of a 20 year old who had an absolutely disastrous freshman year at college and...I get it now. I get it. Why he felt he had to leave and why he did. He wasn't nearly as wrong as I thought he was. I'm not sure what to do with that. I may need to post again about this when I do wrap my brain around it.
Possibly more random thoughts on Buffy that no one will care about coming at some point. Also, I have vids I need to be working on when I actually get off the couch. But, hey...went for an actual walk today and talked to another person, so maybe I'm coming out of it soon?