It just clicked for me that your Who vidding project is just like my SPN idfic writing project! So it's like we're SISTERS! (except for the dating.)
I think you will make it. And if you somehow don't, you'll be kind enough to forgive yourself. Just keep reminding yourself that the insecurity comes from the part of you that expects you to fail, and you're better than that and stronger than that. Because you totally are!
For me, what works best is reminding myself several times while actually doing my 1000 words a day that the point of this is not to be good; the point of this is to get it done. So my insecurities don't even matter - they're irrelevant to this process. Telling myself how much I suck? So what! Doesn't matter if I suck; what matters is that I put 1000 words on a page before I go to bed. And that is actually not that hard at all.
So what was your plan, what is the purpose of this project? Is it to turn out a stellar vid for each episode in the span of a week? Or just to celebrate your love for the show each week by exerting your creative and disciplinary muscles to turn out a vid per week when that is amazing and crazycakes and awesome all on its own? I'm just thinking, if you're letting the anxiety about quality and talent and skill and whatever back in, maybe that's like me letting my internal editor go on about how repetitive and boring and OTT my idfic is.
Anyway. I believe you can do it, because you are awesome. You can always poke me on AIM if you need a little encouragement! *HUG*
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Date: 2010-06-09 02:03 am (UTC)It just clicked for me that your Who vidding project is just like my SPN idfic writing project! So it's like we're SISTERS! (except for the dating.)
I think you will make it. And if you somehow don't, you'll be kind enough to forgive yourself. Just keep reminding yourself that the insecurity comes from the part of you that expects you to fail, and you're better than that and stronger than that. Because you totally are!
For me, what works best is reminding myself several times while actually doing my 1000 words a day that the point of this is not to be good; the point of this is to get it done. So my insecurities don't even matter - they're irrelevant to this process. Telling myself how much I suck? So what! Doesn't matter if I suck; what matters is that I put 1000 words on a page before I go to bed. And that is actually not that hard at all.
So what was your plan, what is the purpose of this project? Is it to turn out a stellar vid for each episode in the span of a week? Or just to celebrate your love for the show each week by exerting your creative and disciplinary muscles to turn out a vid per week when that is amazing and crazycakes and awesome all on its own? I'm just thinking, if you're letting the anxiety about quality and talent and skill and whatever back in, maybe that's like me letting my internal editor go on about how repetitive and boring and OTT my idfic is.
Anyway. I believe you can do it, because you are awesome. You can always poke me on AIM if you need a little encouragement! *HUG*