I am so sorry that you're feeling miserable and that you can feel yourself starting to slip away, as you put it. But -- not to be Pollyanna-ish about this -- clearly you *haven't* slipped away completely: the fact that the situation feels intolerable rather than comfortable or inevitable is actually a really good sign, right? I mean, yes, there are those obstacles you mention in the second paragraph; those are real and hard, and I'm not trying to minimize them. But it does seem like the last year has shown that you are capable of clawing your way over way more obstacles than you previously thought. Saying "I really need to get out of here" doesn't magically solve the problem, but it's a really important first step.
And like I said before -- if you need to get away for a week or two, just to be out of a house that's making you feel dependent, feel free to come take over my guest room for a while so you can research / contemplate your options in less toxic space. No pressure; just know that you're always welcome. ♥
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Date: 2016-03-01 05:54 pm (UTC)And like I said before -- if you need to get away for a week or two, just to be out of a house that's making you feel dependent, feel free to come take over my guest room for a while so you can research / contemplate your options in less toxic space. No pressure; just know that you're always welcome. ♥