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Question, does anyone still need either Voyage of the Damned or the Confidential? Both files I have are over 500 MB, meaning Megaupload is rather useless for anyone who doesn't have a paid account, which is why I haven't uploaded them yet. However, I can if there's a need.
Also, morning after and my squee remains intact. It's not that I am unaware of flaws, it's that they just don't penetrate while I am in viewer mode for shows I love. And it makes me happy that I have that filter. I can't watch things that don't bring me continued enjoyment. I'm never going to claim that my Tigger based approach to source is the only right way to watch, but it's the only right way for me to watch. When I reach the point where frustration or anger or dissapointment on a meta level intrudes too much on the viewing itself, a show loses it's primary purpose in my life. To offer that hour of escape from the twisted way my brain interprets the rest of the world. Fiction is on a very short list of things that do that. Without it, if all that's there is the critical part of the discussion, the parts that are fascinating and frustrating (and sometimes downright angry making) in terms of how they relate to either 'quality' or a wider societal context, I've got no motivation to stay involved. I have enough that goes on in my life and in the world around me that makes me depressed and angry to deliberately inflict something that brings me nothing but misery on myself.
New Who, for all it's faults, still firmly occupies that escapist place during that hour. I'll be honest, I was worried when I sat down to watch VoTD yesterday that the meta level dissapointment and criticisms of the show as a whole (a lot of which I agree with) were going to affect that experience, not just my fannish experience. It didn't. Give me that hour to turn everything else off and I'll forgive you a whole lot. Might want to smack you around a bit when I engage the other parts of my brain, might be angry at any number of external or internal factors that persist, but I'll keep coming back. And the first thing, the very first thing that you get is my squee. Because for a brief time, I got to be somewhere else. And I need that. I suppose I could take up drugs, but I reckon the side effects are healthier this way.
Also, morning after and my squee remains intact. It's not that I am unaware of flaws, it's that they just don't penetrate while I am in viewer mode for shows I love. And it makes me happy that I have that filter. I can't watch things that don't bring me continued enjoyment. I'm never going to claim that my Tigger based approach to source is the only right way to watch, but it's the only right way for me to watch. When I reach the point where frustration or anger or dissapointment on a meta level intrudes too much on the viewing itself, a show loses it's primary purpose in my life. To offer that hour of escape from the twisted way my brain interprets the rest of the world. Fiction is on a very short list of things that do that. Without it, if all that's there is the critical part of the discussion, the parts that are fascinating and frustrating (and sometimes downright angry making) in terms of how they relate to either 'quality' or a wider societal context, I've got no motivation to stay involved. I have enough that goes on in my life and in the world around me that makes me depressed and angry to deliberately inflict something that brings me nothing but misery on myself.
New Who, for all it's faults, still firmly occupies that escapist place during that hour. I'll be honest, I was worried when I sat down to watch VoTD yesterday that the meta level dissapointment and criticisms of the show as a whole (a lot of which I agree with) were going to affect that experience, not just my fannish experience. It didn't. Give me that hour to turn everything else off and I'll forgive you a whole lot. Might want to smack you around a bit when I engage the other parts of my brain, might be angry at any number of external or internal factors that persist, but I'll keep coming back. And the first thing, the very first thing that you get is my squee. Because for a brief time, I got to be somewhere else. And I need that. I suppose I could take up drugs, but I reckon the side effects are healthier this way.
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