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I was gonna do the big expansive year end vidding thing when I realized I've only made three this year. Three and a half if you count the vidlet. Which is about usual since I made four last year. Conclusion, I vid slow as molasses...which we already knew. All three were Doctor Who, also not a shock. So I'm slow and predictable. Round up behind the cut.
I'm pleased with my progress in terms of understanding music better, and with my goal of learning to cut to reflect that, but there are still things (particularly related to structure) I'm a bit shaky on. I'm not entirely sure where I want to go from here. Special effects beyond mild manipulation for timing purposes still don't really seem to have a place in how I structure vids. I can see how they are used effectively in other vids I admire, it just doesn't translate in my brain very well to how they might work for me. I think maybe at some point this year I want to try my hand at an effects heavy vid, both to get some practice with tools I don't use very often and also to see if I can't make a stab at figuring out if there is a style of effects that feels like a natural part of my expression. So, the vids I did in order:
Moons of Jupiter. Probably my favorite of the year. It did precisely what I wanted it to do, pretty much how I wanted to do it. A silly romp highlighting the manically adorable side of Ten. As much as I love the more serious and angsty side of both the show and fandom, it's the sheer cracked out glee that keeps the fires of love burning so bright. Also, David Tennant. And really, any vid in which you get to do an interlude highlighting the pure true love of a man and his TARDIS is going to be a positive experience. The vast majority of my angst regarding this vid can be directly related to premeiring it at VVC, and not so much the vid process itself. Hug count: Seven.
Beautiful Enemy (vidlet). So, I don't have to vid like a glacier, it seems. 24 hours, one verse...and though there are definitely things I'd want to change and/or tighten up I'm surprised at how much I can get done quickly if I just let go and chuck like mad at the timeline. A lot of the reason vids take me so long to finish are the hours, days, weeks I spend frozen in place or avoiding adding more clips for fear of doing it wrong. If I could just give myself permission to do this more often I'd probably finish vids a lot faster. I'm not holding my breath that I'll be able to convince my brain of this any time soon. Hug count: Does clutching a corpse count as hugging? If so, one.
Don't Touch That Dial. Vid I am most unsure and insecure about. It's the one that meant the most to me making it, and I wanted to do right by Martha dammit. I'm still not sure I entirely succeeded...and I can't even really put my finger on why I think that. Which kind of upsets me if I think about it too much, because if anyone deserved my best vid of the year it was Martha. I am almost never completely satisfied with the vids I invest the most in emotionally...'cause...it's not so much that I think it's a bad vid. Just that I worry a lot that it deserved someone better than me making it. Hug count: Seven.
And She Was. The vid in which I learned two very important things. One, working with .m2vs with my current method and setup for vidding is just not practical yet. As much as I'd like to step up to shinier output, the trade off of tech frustration is not worth it. Two, never, ever delete project files. I had a three quarters draft sitting on my hard drive for over a year, thinking this vid was a complete and utter failure...only to find that when I did pull it out again it only took me about a week to knock it into shape and finish it. And I like it. It helped me reconnect to Rose after fannish issues had soured my experience with her character, and for that alone I'm glad I finished it. Hug count: Eight.
The year to come...hrm. I'd like to vid something other than Doctor Who, but since my head isn't really anywhere else right now, I don't know if that's going to happen. Especially since my big goal right now is to have at least one vid for every Doctor eventually. So, um, more old school Who definitely, along with any new Who rattling around in my brain. Keep my eye out for non-Who related vid ideas, maybe dust some old ones off. The above mentioned special effects specific vid. And more output. I'm setting a minimum goal for myself of six vids this year. That seems reasonable, if I stop worrying so much and just vid more. Continue to learn more about music, structure in particular. As always, cleaner cutting and stronger structure. I'd also like to do one entire vid without lapsing into tearful frustration and "I SUCK" howling. One vid where I am totally okay with just doing the best I can at the time and letting it go regardless of how it turns out. Oh, and also there should be hugs.
So there we are.
I'm pleased with my progress in terms of understanding music better, and with my goal of learning to cut to reflect that, but there are still things (particularly related to structure) I'm a bit shaky on. I'm not entirely sure where I want to go from here. Special effects beyond mild manipulation for timing purposes still don't really seem to have a place in how I structure vids. I can see how they are used effectively in other vids I admire, it just doesn't translate in my brain very well to how they might work for me. I think maybe at some point this year I want to try my hand at an effects heavy vid, both to get some practice with tools I don't use very often and also to see if I can't make a stab at figuring out if there is a style of effects that feels like a natural part of my expression. So, the vids I did in order:
Moons of Jupiter. Probably my favorite of the year. It did precisely what I wanted it to do, pretty much how I wanted to do it. A silly romp highlighting the manically adorable side of Ten. As much as I love the more serious and angsty side of both the show and fandom, it's the sheer cracked out glee that keeps the fires of love burning so bright. Also, David Tennant. And really, any vid in which you get to do an interlude highlighting the pure true love of a man and his TARDIS is going to be a positive experience. The vast majority of my angst regarding this vid can be directly related to premeiring it at VVC, and not so much the vid process itself. Hug count: Seven.
Beautiful Enemy (vidlet). So, I don't have to vid like a glacier, it seems. 24 hours, one verse...and though there are definitely things I'd want to change and/or tighten up I'm surprised at how much I can get done quickly if I just let go and chuck like mad at the timeline. A lot of the reason vids take me so long to finish are the hours, days, weeks I spend frozen in place or avoiding adding more clips for fear of doing it wrong. If I could just give myself permission to do this more often I'd probably finish vids a lot faster. I'm not holding my breath that I'll be able to convince my brain of this any time soon. Hug count: Does clutching a corpse count as hugging? If so, one.
Don't Touch That Dial. Vid I am most unsure and insecure about. It's the one that meant the most to me making it, and I wanted to do right by Martha dammit. I'm still not sure I entirely succeeded...and I can't even really put my finger on why I think that. Which kind of upsets me if I think about it too much, because if anyone deserved my best vid of the year it was Martha. I am almost never completely satisfied with the vids I invest the most in emotionally...'cause...it's not so much that I think it's a bad vid. Just that I worry a lot that it deserved someone better than me making it. Hug count: Seven.
And She Was. The vid in which I learned two very important things. One, working with .m2vs with my current method and setup for vidding is just not practical yet. As much as I'd like to step up to shinier output, the trade off of tech frustration is not worth it. Two, never, ever delete project files. I had a three quarters draft sitting on my hard drive for over a year, thinking this vid was a complete and utter failure...only to find that when I did pull it out again it only took me about a week to knock it into shape and finish it. And I like it. It helped me reconnect to Rose after fannish issues had soured my experience with her character, and for that alone I'm glad I finished it. Hug count: Eight.
The year to come...hrm. I'd like to vid something other than Doctor Who, but since my head isn't really anywhere else right now, I don't know if that's going to happen. Especially since my big goal right now is to have at least one vid for every Doctor eventually. So, um, more old school Who definitely, along with any new Who rattling around in my brain. Keep my eye out for non-Who related vid ideas, maybe dust some old ones off. The above mentioned special effects specific vid. And more output. I'm setting a minimum goal for myself of six vids this year. That seems reasonable, if I stop worrying so much and just vid more. Continue to learn more about music, structure in particular. As always, cleaner cutting and stronger structure. I'd also like to do one entire vid without lapsing into tearful frustration and "I SUCK" howling. One vid where I am totally okay with just doing the best I can at the time and letting it go regardless of how it turns out. Oh, and also there should be hugs.
So there we are.
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