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I am attempting to get myself back to a pack (or under, preferably under) of cigarettes a day. I tend to chain smoke when I vid, even worse when I'm feeling frustrated or stuck, which can drag me up to pretty scary levels of amounts of smoke sucked into my lungs on a daily basis. My lungs hate me right now, but my brain is demanding I keep up the level of nicotine. The resulting scary coughing on the one hand and twitching on the other sucks a lot. At the moment I've got myself on a timed system of rationing that allows for one an hour at most. I expect my brain to adjust within a few days.
Damn, but this is a stupid habit. I feel like I might be gearing up to try and quite entirely again, though likely not until after Vividcon. I'm thinking what I'll probably do is take my smokes money at that point and go ahead and invest in a used Playstation and Guitar Hero. It keeps both my hands busy, while appealing to the obsessive part of my brain that will want to keep playing the same song over and over and over and over again for a higher score for hours and hours. I think I'll call that a plan. Quit date post-VVC (exact date to be determined)...Guitar Hero as my methadone.
Damn, but this is a stupid habit. I feel like I might be gearing up to try and quite entirely again, though likely not until after Vividcon. I'm thinking what I'll probably do is take my smokes money at that point and go ahead and invest in a used Playstation and Guitar Hero. It keeps both my hands busy, while appealing to the obsessive part of my brain that will want to keep playing the same song over and over and over and over again for a higher score for hours and hours. I think I'll call that a plan. Quit date post-VVC (exact date to be determined)...Guitar Hero as my methadone.
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