Beach blues

[fan_eunice]

Right, so I completely dropped the ball on uploading China Beach. Turns out that I just was not emotionally equipped to rewatch the series and deal with that level of fictional pain at this time. Which got tied up in anxiety over not being able to make episode discussion posts like I wanted, which made me avoid uploading, and throw on top my issues with posting and keeping up in general and you have yourself a clusterfuck in my brain and a deep desire to hide under the couch instead of addressing it.

I am sorry :(

Although I don't know when I will be watching and talking about it again (and I will, my love for China Beach is kind of epic), I will start getting the rest of the series uploaded this week (likely after I finish the current episodic Who vid, on account of uploading slows my computer down and makes vidding an exercise in frustration).

And this is why Eunice avoids making commitments and promising things. No matter how much I want to be able to say "Why yes, I can/will do this thing!" it just isn't fair to anyone to create expectations that I may not be able to fulfill.

Comments

[jonquil]

Be gentle to yourself. Please. "Right now I've got a lot of stuff on my plate, and it may take awhile."

[fan_eunice]

*hugs*

[violetisblue]

On behalf of the Internets, I must express that we all love you and do not want you to trigger yourself and get upset in the service of what you think you "owe" anyone. Watch things that make you happy.

[skipthedemon]

What Violet said. *hugs*

[cathexys]

I was really happy that you offered and excited to download the ones you uploaded, but never did I expect you to follow a strict pattern or anything. You're doing us a favor! Please don't make that be another thing to worry you or guilt you or make you feel bad!!!

Tell us about how cool the fifth season is instead and make us all happy!!! (And was that recent ep not the best thing in a long time??? :)

Ronon hugs, because how can you not feel better after being held by those arms??? :)