to ship or not to ship

[fan_eunice]

Internet, I have a problem. I have no idea if I ship Eleven/Amy or not. This should not be a problem. You know me, I ship everything. And I love them both, separately and together, just about more than I've loved anything in a long time. We're talking Tennant's fashion choices and Hugh's shaved head level of love here. I REALLY LOVE THEM A LOT, OKAY. So what's the problem here?

It's Eleven. I have mentioned before he actually does feel very old, very ancient to me. And parental. Like, in general, not Amy specific. I love this. I love this a really, really, REALLY, (and one more in caps and italics in case the first three didn't convince you), REALLY, lot. Like, I see him dandling the human race on his knee and tucking in, and telling bedtime stories, and sneaking extra cookies, and being really proud when the humans bring home an A on the test, and that "Nobody human has anything to say" moment in Beast Below was totally that time humans got drunk at a party and accidentally ran over the neighbor's dog and crashed the car into a tree and he was SO DISAPPOINTED.

Are you seeing my problem here? There is chemistry to spare between Eleven and Amy and they are adorable and sparky together, and they give each other looks and UST and I'm like...YES PLZ. And then...*waves hands around* SO TORN.

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I hope this makes any sense at all

[fannishnonsense]

I've been thinking about this, and I sort of think that's why I ship them? Like, there's a clip out there where Matt's talking about how great it is to play the Doctor, because he's simultaneously old and young and brilliant and a madman and a bunch of other things (can't remember the exact quote right now) all at once. Which is pretty much how I see the Doctor too. And that just makes it more interesting to me than just "oh, poor lonely alien needs a girlfriend." It's really not an unproblematic, happy-ever-after, lets-get-a-mortgage type of thing; it's weird and sort of messed up and comes with a built in expiration date, and it feels like the people involved with making the show get that this time. Which leaves me free to go "yeah, but what if?"