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Huh, I'm going to call this a win. Woke up this morning and my leg and back were not burning, twitching, or otherwise engaged in shooting pains. That was nice. If I am careful I can avoid aggravating it, and with Vicodin in reserve for when I can't...this is manageable. Same with the arm. As long as I don't overuse it in ways I know will annoy it, and remember to slather antibiotics on every scrape the second it happens, we've come to an uneasy peace where I don't even need my compression sleeve as much as I thought I would (I should, however, be wrapping more at night, but I'm lazy as fuck and wrapping your own arm is TRICKY). I'm still not happy about the little presents surgery and chemo left behind, but I'm starting to really see how it could be mostly livable.
This week's vid, on the other hand, is giving me fits. Found a song last night, and I am almost certain it will work if I can figure out how to put it all together. It would suck mightily (for me, anyway) if this project ground to a halt now, but then...every week I think this time I couldn't possibly pull it off and still a vid happens. So. Sometimes I think maybe I am insane for doing this. Or just being annoying as hell, because every episode, really? I'm not going to stop, but I do get insecure about sharing it, which doesn't help.
*waves hands around*
This week's vid, on the other hand, is giving me fits. Found a song last night, and I am almost certain it will work if I can figure out how to put it all together. It would suck mightily (for me, anyway) if this project ground to a halt now, but then...every week I think this time I couldn't possibly pull it off and still a vid happens. So. Sometimes I think maybe I am insane for doing this. Or just being annoying as hell, because every episode, really? I'm not going to stop, but I do get insecure about sharing it, which doesn't help.
*waves hands around*
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I hate when my brain goes all insecure flailing. I wish it didn't, but reassurances are nice when it does.
*hugs more*
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I'm glad. I'm really glad. It's not as good as I want for you, but it's a good thing.
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It is a good thing. The brain is amazingly adaptable thing. I'd rather not have to adapt in the first place, but I'm glad I can. :)
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And its so good that things are settling otherwise.
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I don't think I've ever prevented the mass slaughter of law students before! That may just be the best compliment ever. :D
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(:
I love you and I'm glad to know you're managing your pain in new and effective ways. ::hugs::
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Damn.
Where were we? *snuggles you* Thank you for the offer, I really think the vid I have going is the one I want to make for this time out, I'm just sort of flailing with it at the moment. Not helped by having a bit of an insecure breakdown over the whole project. Logically I know that my friends would not let me be embarrassing on the internet (at least I hope y'all wouldn't), and that complete strangers would not drop by to say they liked stuff if I was making a complete fool of myself. The not sane part of me is NOT HAVING IT, though. Bleh.
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Or, you know, continue using them as fantasy fodder. (:
You hit the insecurity part of the vidding cycle, huh? Well, it comes to us all. I know you'll snap out of it. We wait feverishly for your next installment, you know!