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Okay, so there is always a moment when I'm vidding that things just sort of...start coming together and I know it will be finished and it looks like a vid, even though there's still work to do/stuff to fill in. I love that part. What I need to somehow figure out how to remember is that the part before eventually gets there.
Because otherwise I drag the process out way longer than it needs to (and it is part of the reason I vid so slow) throwing tantrums and declaring my vid mojo GONE FOREVER and being sure I will NEVER VID AGAIN. And then I sulk on the couch watching bad reality tv and eating cookies instead of, y'know, pushing through.
This is also why taking too much time in between vids is bad for me. Somehow I always manage to convince myself that, no, it wasn't actually that frustrating getting to the magic moment last time, and I could not have possibly felt this badly, or sucked this hard, and this time is TOTALLY DIFFERENT, no really...this time is proof that I could not vid my way out of a paper bag. No, I look at my finished vids and I am certain that I just magically knew what went where on the timeline and how it all fit together. Even though I KNOW ME, and know that could never have been true.
The funny part is if you string together all the time I spend sulking instead of just opening Premiere and getting on with it, I'd spend so much less time in that state and get my vids done so much faster and with so much less pain. I should bookmark this to remind myself, even though I'm pretty sure next time I will come back, read it, and tell myself that was all well and good on my last vid but THIS ONE is different.
I am such a special snowflake. This post brought to you by the fact that getting the fuck over myself led to not only filling in most of the timeline on my 2 minute vid of silliness, but having actualfax fun doing it. Which, that should have been the first sign at how ridiculous I was being. When you are vidding your boyfriend to Cyndi Lauper and not having fun it is so seriously time for a reality check.
Because otherwise I drag the process out way longer than it needs to (and it is part of the reason I vid so slow) throwing tantrums and declaring my vid mojo GONE FOREVER and being sure I will NEVER VID AGAIN. And then I sulk on the couch watching bad reality tv and eating cookies instead of, y'know, pushing through.
This is also why taking too much time in between vids is bad for me. Somehow I always manage to convince myself that, no, it wasn't actually that frustrating getting to the magic moment last time, and I could not have possibly felt this badly, or sucked this hard, and this time is TOTALLY DIFFERENT, no really...this time is proof that I could not vid my way out of a paper bag. No, I look at my finished vids and I am certain that I just magically knew what went where on the timeline and how it all fit together. Even though I KNOW ME, and know that could never have been true.
The funny part is if you string together all the time I spend sulking instead of just opening Premiere and getting on with it, I'd spend so much less time in that state and get my vids done so much faster and with so much less pain. I should bookmark this to remind myself, even though I'm pretty sure next time I will come back, read it, and tell myself that was all well and good on my last vid but THIS ONE is different.
I am such a special snowflake. This post brought to you by the fact that getting the fuck over myself led to not only filling in most of the timeline on my 2 minute vid of silliness, but having actualfax fun doing it. Which, that should have been the first sign at how ridiculous I was being. When you are vidding your boyfriend to Cyndi Lauper and not having fun it is so seriously time for a reality check.