Been having a rough couple days. My next followup with oncologist is tomorrow. I don't actually anticipate anything new or scary (I think this is the first time in a long time I will get away without any scans ordered since my health issues have all been stable the last six months). This doesn't seem to stop my body and brain from ramping into high stress mode over the last month, culminating in me spending the last two days sleeping almost constantly and only waking up long enough to engage in obsessive negative thoughts centered around everything from vidding angst to cancer angst. And there's really nothing I can do at this point but ride it out and hope I'll snap back after tomorrow. At least until another six months is up. Or I develop some new random ache or pain.
This five years cannot be over soon enough.
This five years cannot be over soon enough.