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[fan_eunice]

Still watching SG-1 as I walk and this morning Daniel died and ascended. Which doesn't have quite the same emotional impact when you are looking back on the series with the knowledge that dying is essentially Daniel's hobby, like knitting only with more flatlining and less baby sweaters.

What did have emotional impact was something clicking with me that I am probably the last person on the planet to realize, and has likely been discussed to death, but whatever...sometimes I'm slow. And that is that you can gauge just how many FEELINGS Jack is having by how far he's shut down in his expression of same. The most painful experiences he has are generally reduced to one word. "Yeah". It's like there are no words big enough to express his PAIN, so he goes monosyllabic. And, weirdly, I am also realizing this is a characterization that carries over to the movie as well (which I just rewatched recently), even played by a different actor. Which takes place very, very recently after his son's death and in which Kurt Russel is essentially playing it almost completely blank, with sentences of about two words through most of it.

Sarcasm, dark humor, and colorfully invective outbursts are for situations which are bad but fixable. A short (but devastating)explosion of anger may accompany the aftermath of something truly bad or unfixable happening. But in the moment, all Jack can manage is a monosyllabic affirmation, as though if he even moves too much, much less says too much that it could never be contained (confirmed, I think by the sometimes explosions of FEELINGS when a nerve has been touched and how he shuts down almost immediately when they do). MY. HEART.

Just. Oh god, Jack. For all that Daniel has a habit of emoting all over the place, I really do think that Jack is the sensitive one. My poor emotionally repressed bunny. I WANT TO HUG HIM A LOT, OKAY.

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[littleheaven]

Oh, God. Those two have such a bromance. And, yes, Jack might seem like the class clown but you know that's covering up so much pain that he just keeps pushing back down. I sobbed like a little girly-girl during Meridian, even though I knew what was coming in the next few seasons.

[fan_eunice]

And, yes, Jack might seem like the class clown but you know that's covering up so much pain that he just keeps pushing back down.

So. Much. Pain. Like, I was just thinking about the time loop episode which is one of the most hysterically funny episodes in existence (dear god Jack and Teal'c juggling ALONE sets me off into uncontrollable giggles). And yet..there is that moment during the confrontation with the scientist guy telling Jack he doesn't know how he feels and Jack starts screaming that he lost his son. And it's...so brutally raw that you're suddenly hit in the face that he still lives with that pain. Every day. Always. And yet he gets up every morning, puts one foot in front of the other, and forms these intensely loving bonds with his team and finds joy in fishing and saves the world and he survives. And I just...dear god, I love him so much I can barely stand it.

[littleheaven]

You are making me realise how much I miss talking about this show! I must schedule a rewatch sometime after I finish my Voyager rewatch... which was also your fault, no? ;o)