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Still watching SG-1 as I walk and this morning Daniel died and ascended. Which doesn't have quite the same emotional impact when you are looking back on the series with the knowledge that dying is essentially Daniel's hobby, like knitting only with more flatlining and less baby sweaters.
What did have emotional impact was something clicking with me that I am probably the last person on the planet to realize, and has likely been discussed to death, but whatever...sometimes I'm slow. And that is that you can gauge just how many FEELINGS Jack is having by how far he's shut down in his expression of same. The most painful experiences he has are generally reduced to one word. "Yeah". It's like there are no words big enough to express his PAIN, so he goes monosyllabic. And, weirdly, I am also realizing this is a characterization that carries over to the movie as well (which I just rewatched recently), even played by a different actor. Which takes place very, very recently after his son's death and in which Kurt Russel is essentially playing it almost completely blank, with sentences of about two words through most of it.
Sarcasm, dark humor, and colorfully invective outbursts are for situations which are bad but fixable. A short (but devastating)explosion of anger may accompany the aftermath of something truly bad or unfixable happening. But in the moment, all Jack can manage is a monosyllabic affirmation, as though if he even moves too much, much less says too much that it could never be contained (confirmed, I think by the sometimes explosions of FEELINGS when a nerve has been touched and how he shuts down almost immediately when they do). MY. HEART.
Just. Oh god, Jack. For all that Daniel has a habit of emoting all over the place, I really do think that Jack is the sensitive one. My poor emotionally repressed bunny. I WANT TO HUG HIM A LOT, OKAY.
What did have emotional impact was something clicking with me that I am probably the last person on the planet to realize, and has likely been discussed to death, but whatever...sometimes I'm slow. And that is that you can gauge just how many FEELINGS Jack is having by how far he's shut down in his expression of same. The most painful experiences he has are generally reduced to one word. "Yeah". It's like there are no words big enough to express his PAIN, so he goes monosyllabic. And, weirdly, I am also realizing this is a characterization that carries over to the movie as well (which I just rewatched recently), even played by a different actor. Which takes place very, very recently after his son's death and in which Kurt Russel is essentially playing it almost completely blank, with sentences of about two words through most of it.
Sarcasm, dark humor, and colorfully invective outbursts are for situations which are bad but fixable. A short (but devastating)explosion of anger may accompany the aftermath of something truly bad or unfixable happening. But in the moment, all Jack can manage is a monosyllabic affirmation, as though if he even moves too much, much less says too much that it could never be contained (confirmed, I think by the sometimes explosions of FEELINGS when a nerve has been touched and how he shuts down almost immediately when they do). MY. HEART.
Just. Oh god, Jack. For all that Daniel has a habit of emoting all over the place, I really do think that Jack is the sensitive one. My poor emotionally repressed bunny. I WANT TO HUG HIM A LOT, OKAY.
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SO MANY FEELINGS. I HAVE SO MANY JACK FEELINGS.
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Abyss is SO difficult but amazing to watch for similar reasons. And it's why Jack's reaction to the breeze they all feel at the end of Revelations just breaks me.
Those characters are still some of my favorite, ever. ♥ And the cool thing about rewatching is that I've usually forgotten so much, it's almost like watching for the first time.
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But, yes, oh god JACK. Just...everyone else has ways of expressing their emotional state over the series by using their words or just getting upset (including Teal'c though his method of expression is generally more stoic). Jack just...shuts down, and it's devastating. Except when he explodes, which is also devastating because it's not even cathartic most of the time. It's more like a release valve being hit briefly until he can manage to lock it down again.
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It is. He's such a clam.
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So. Much. Pain. Like, I was just thinking about the time loop episode which is one of the most hysterically funny episodes in existence (dear god Jack and Teal'c juggling ALONE sets me off into uncontrollable giggles). And yet..there is that moment during the confrontation with the scientist guy telling Jack he doesn't know how he feels and Jack starts screaming that he lost his son. And it's...so brutally raw that you're suddenly hit in the face that he still lives with that pain. Every day. Always. And yet he gets up every morning, puts one foot in front of the other, and forms these intensely loving bonds with his team and finds joy in fishing and saves the world and he survives. And I just...dear god, I love him so much I can barely stand it.
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This left me giggling and snorting, just so you know. :)
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I love that by the time you get to the latter part of the series, the reaction to Daniel dying is less woe and more, like, 'Again? Really? Whatever, wait it out.'