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Evidence that I am bored out of my skull this morning, Deep Thoughts about Torchwood.
1. Time loops freak me out because they never end. In order for one to work the same events have to continuously cycle for eternity and they are unchangeable. Which means everyone in them is forever stuck in some form living what happened/will happen over and over and over and over. Until the end of the universe Tommy will be pulled out of that bed and frozen until he has to go back and tell them to pull him out of the bed and freeze him so he can go back and tell them to freeze him. Things can't go different because they've already happened. And you can't stop them because they haven't happened yet. That? Is pretty much my definition of hell. Blink creeped me out for the same reasons, not just the terrifying statues. I start having an existential crisis if I think about it too long, and I love it when it happens onna telly because it freaks me out so hard. I am weird.
2. What I love about Tosh and Tommy is that the romance part is only the wrapping for what's really going on with both of them. The story here is not the doomed love affair. The story is that Tosh, who is so adorable and having so much fun getting dressed and eager and sparkly bubbly about it, is doing something fun for herself. And I love Tommy not just a little for pointing out that this is a bigger issue than whether she will get to snog him. Why hasn't she taken up piano or learned Spanish or gone out on the town, or carved out any slice of time just for her that doesn't happen once a year and involves unthawing the Tommysicle? She's letting the days slip past her, and not stopping to reach out and take the moment. That she can here highlights all the times she doesn't otherwise. And her response to the situation once the box is opened, and they know what has to be done, and what will happen to Tommy is perfect. She doesn't let that time slide by, and she doesn't waste it trying to stop the next day coming, or ignore that it is, she takes it. Good for her. We're all going to die, it's what you do with the days in between that counts. I don't have particularly grand hopes that this will carry through for Tosh in the rest of the series/season, but I'm glad to have it here...and in my head she went and signed up for those piano lessons the next day.
3. And okay, Tommy and the futility of war. Doesn't matter if you go to sleep and wake up once a year, war is always going to be waiting for you because it's what we do. We kill each other. We destroy each other over patches of land and righteous ideology. Do you think we're worth saving? No, pumpkin, I'm with you...we're not. Except. That Tosh, after all she's seen and done, can still answer without hesitation that she believes that we are...that Tommy can put his faith, not in humanity at large, but in that and save us all? Means maybe we're worth the reprieve. Maybe we're worth the hope that someday we might be worth saving. Maybe. And either way Tommy will die by firing squad three weeks later. Because maybe one day doesn't mean we're worth saving right now. *criez*
4. Hints of emo Ianto, yay! I am glad that Gwen gave him the 'cheer up emo kid' moment, because he needs that occasional kick in the pants, and I thought the two of them were incredibly sweet together. I am digging the Gwen/Ianto interaction this season, and as I told![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
fandom_me this is just further proof that any 'shipper war is easily solved by an OT3 here. But, okay...I love emo Ianto. This is not a rational response. How not rational is it? Cyberwoman was the episode that made sure I would watch the rest of TW season 1. Yes, that episode. I have all kinds of issues with Cyberwoman and it's execution for many different reasons that, if laid out from end to end, would form an Issue Bridge all the way across the ocean. And yet. When Ianto makes that face? You know, that one, the one right before it crumples into a big ball of snot bubbling angst? That face instantly triggers every protective instinct I have, and some I didn't know I had, on a kick in the gut level emotional response that has nothing to do with anything but that face. The actual story ceases to matter at that point because I'm flailing at my screen murmering "Oh, pumpkin, there, there, let me wrap you in blankies and make you tea...you want a cybergirlfriend in the basement? Let's make that happen if it makes you feel better, I'll scavenge the parts myself if it helps." See? NOT RATIONAL. But what it did do was give me an emotional investment in a character such that I was willing to stick out just about anything for the rest of the season. And for this reason emo Ianto is so totally my boy in the game here. And snarky, confident Ianto means that much more, 'cause he's not making that face and he could be. So yes, shades of that face are always welcome to me. Feel free to defriend me now.
5. Team love! They are all still working together and it is AWESOME. All the different parts of the unit doing this and that as a cohesive whole to get shit done. I love that. Giving me good TEAM is almost as effective as Ianto's emo face in getting me to forgive just about anything. Like the fact that over the last three episodes my seething hatred of Owen has actually shifted, first from active loathing to passive and then on to actually not minding his presence, to actually having a brief moment of 'aw' last night. I'm going to doubt I will ever actually like him, but I've never been willing to do any sort of handwaving or text twisting to understand him before, and I am now. This is good for both my blood pressure and my general philosophy that I always try to find things to love or at least find interesting in every major character on shows I watch. It is also weird. I'm running with it, though, because it makes the watching more pleasant. And it means that if Owen/Anyone I care about actually happens, I'll be able to deal.
6. Do I really need to say anything about the Jack/Ianto office bonding with deep and significant looks, Jack practically professing his love with hearts and flowers, and the snogging? Do I really? Y'all know without me saying that I'm going to watch that on a loop forever and that it has DOOMED me to permanent insanity about this pairing, right? I am bracing myself for whatever canon fallout comes with it (stupid canon 'ships, I HATE YOU), but they hardly matter because I AM DOOMED. That is all.
1. Time loops freak me out because they never end. In order for one to work the same events have to continuously cycle for eternity and they are unchangeable. Which means everyone in them is forever stuck in some form living what happened/will happen over and over and over and over. Until the end of the universe Tommy will be pulled out of that bed and frozen until he has to go back and tell them to pull him out of the bed and freeze him so he can go back and tell them to freeze him. Things can't go different because they've already happened. And you can't stop them because they haven't happened yet. That? Is pretty much my definition of hell. Blink creeped me out for the same reasons, not just the terrifying statues. I start having an existential crisis if I think about it too long, and I love it when it happens onna telly because it freaks me out so hard. I am weird.
2. What I love about Tosh and Tommy is that the romance part is only the wrapping for what's really going on with both of them. The story here is not the doomed love affair. The story is that Tosh, who is so adorable and having so much fun getting dressed and eager and sparkly bubbly about it, is doing something fun for herself. And I love Tommy not just a little for pointing out that this is a bigger issue than whether she will get to snog him. Why hasn't she taken up piano or learned Spanish or gone out on the town, or carved out any slice of time just for her that doesn't happen once a year and involves unthawing the Tommysicle? She's letting the days slip past her, and not stopping to reach out and take the moment. That she can here highlights all the times she doesn't otherwise. And her response to the situation once the box is opened, and they know what has to be done, and what will happen to Tommy is perfect. She doesn't let that time slide by, and she doesn't waste it trying to stop the next day coming, or ignore that it is, she takes it. Good for her. We're all going to die, it's what you do with the days in between that counts. I don't have particularly grand hopes that this will carry through for Tosh in the rest of the series/season, but I'm glad to have it here...and in my head she went and signed up for those piano lessons the next day.
3. And okay, Tommy and the futility of war. Doesn't matter if you go to sleep and wake up once a year, war is always going to be waiting for you because it's what we do. We kill each other. We destroy each other over patches of land and righteous ideology. Do you think we're worth saving? No, pumpkin, I'm with you...we're not. Except. That Tosh, after all she's seen and done, can still answer without hesitation that she believes that we are...that Tommy can put his faith, not in humanity at large, but in that and save us all? Means maybe we're worth the reprieve. Maybe we're worth the hope that someday we might be worth saving. Maybe. And either way Tommy will die by firing squad three weeks later. Because maybe one day doesn't mean we're worth saving right now. *criez*
4. Hints of emo Ianto, yay! I am glad that Gwen gave him the 'cheer up emo kid' moment, because he needs that occasional kick in the pants, and I thought the two of them were incredibly sweet together. I am digging the Gwen/Ianto interaction this season, and as I told
fandom_me this is just further proof that any 'shipper war is easily solved by an OT3 here. But, okay...I love emo Ianto. This is not a rational response. How not rational is it? Cyberwoman was the episode that made sure I would watch the rest of TW season 1. Yes, that episode. I have all kinds of issues with Cyberwoman and it's execution for many different reasons that, if laid out from end to end, would form an Issue Bridge all the way across the ocean. And yet. When Ianto makes that face? You know, that one, the one right before it crumples into a big ball of snot bubbling angst? That face instantly triggers every protective instinct I have, and some I didn't know I had, on a kick in the gut level emotional response that has nothing to do with anything but that face. The actual story ceases to matter at that point because I'm flailing at my screen murmering "Oh, pumpkin, there, there, let me wrap you in blankies and make you tea...you want a cybergirlfriend in the basement? Let's make that happen if it makes you feel better, I'll scavenge the parts myself if it helps." See? NOT RATIONAL. But what it did do was give me an emotional investment in a character such that I was willing to stick out just about anything for the rest of the season. And for this reason emo Ianto is so totally my boy in the game here. And snarky, confident Ianto means that much more, 'cause he's not making that face and he could be. So yes, shades of that face are always welcome to me. Feel free to defriend me now. 5. Team love! They are all still working together and it is AWESOME. All the different parts of the unit doing this and that as a cohesive whole to get shit done. I love that. Giving me good TEAM is almost as effective as Ianto's emo face in getting me to forgive just about anything. Like the fact that over the last three episodes my seething hatred of Owen has actually shifted, first from active loathing to passive and then on to actually not minding his presence, to actually having a brief moment of 'aw' last night. I'm going to doubt I will ever actually like him, but I've never been willing to do any sort of handwaving or text twisting to understand him before, and I am now. This is good for both my blood pressure and my general philosophy that I always try to find things to love or at least find interesting in every major character on shows I watch. It is also weird. I'm running with it, though, because it makes the watching more pleasant. And it means that if Owen/Anyone I care about actually happens, I'll be able to deal.
6. Do I really need to say anything about the Jack/Ianto office bonding with deep and significant looks, Jack practically professing his love with hearts and flowers, and the snogging? Do I really? Y'all know without me saying that I'm going to watch that on a loop forever and that it has DOOMED me to permanent insanity about this pairing, right? I am bracing myself for whatever canon fallout comes with it (stupid canon 'ships, I HATE YOU), but they hardly matter because I AM DOOMED. That is all.