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Sorry for being so...y'know lately. Clearly I am not very chill about the port removal and brca testing being done tomorrow. I just really, really don't want more surgery. Not even minor stuff like the port removal. Really not the removal of my ovaries which will occur if the brca test comes back positive. Scars are totally cool, but I think I've got enough of them already, thank you. And, not that I will miss them in particular, but I'd like losing body parts not to become a trend. See also: stupid wonky thyroid which is also on the list of things that need more testing. I'm going to be a cyborg by the time I'm 50 or something.

Y'all, seriously, if my random freakouts and the posting results of same bother you please do not feel bad about defriending me. I will not in any way be upset or offended.

If it helps it will be over tomorrow at least. Well, not the waiting on the test results but this part. And then Sunday we hit the COMPLETELY EPIC portion of Eleventy season. I'm pretty sure nothing can stand in the way of the squee storm I feel building. I predict capslock. Lots and lots of capslock.