I used to not ship Reese/Finch (note that is in the past tense and we'll get to that in a second). It wasn't because I also ship Reese/Carter pretty hardcore, because when I was born they probably stamped 'multishipper' on my birth certificate. No. It was because I had issues. Namely that I worry about John Reese a lot. After a bit of a rocky start we bonded hard and at this point in my life I love him so much it makes my heart hurt. And I found myself uncomfortable at the idea of there not even being a sliver of separation in the power Finch has over him, so I stuck to a line in the sand at romantic/physical. Mind you, this discomfort wasn't because I thought or think Finch would ever abuse the power he holds over Reese, because he would never. Never, ever, ever. I trust him absolutely with it. I just...found myself more than a little terrified of having Reese be that completely vulnerable given the givens of his particular brand of broken and how he got that way (MY HEART).
And then![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
sisabet started making a vid. And within a few clips on the timeline she was destroying me and any illusions I had that the sliver of separation I sought even existed to cling to. What does Reese want, she asked me in vid form? What if you really thought about how much he thinks he doesn't deserve it? What if he thinks, as sweetestdrain so eloquently put it, "I suck and you're perfect and your hair has secrets" Could you, eunice, look at his face and deny him ANYTHING?
The answer was, NO. No I could not look at his face doing that thing it does set to The National and deny him ANYTHING AT ALL EVER. Reese has enough issues on his own (YOU DESERVE A FOREVER HOME, JOHN, PLEASE BELIEVE THAT YOU DO), that I don't need to be going putting mine on him. And that was it forever. Much like that moment in canon where, in an instant, I went from 'eh, okay' to falling off the cliff of love and going splat into ALL THE FEELINGS, EVER about John Reese, I cliffed right into shipping it forever.
Damn yousisabet.
And you all? Go watch this vid right now. Now, I mean right now. Bring tissues.
And now I'm left trying to figure out if I can OT3 here (I get stuck on finding an in to Finch/Carter), or if I will just parallel ship. *throws hands up*
NOTHING JOHN REESE, I WOULD DENY YOU AND YOUR FACE NOTHING.
Seriously, watch the vid.
And then
sisabet started making a vid. And within a few clips on the timeline she was destroying me and any illusions I had that the sliver of separation I sought even existed to cling to. What does Reese want, she asked me in vid form? What if you really thought about how much he thinks he doesn't deserve it? What if he thinks, as sweetestdrain so eloquently put it, "I suck and you're perfect and your hair has secrets" Could you, eunice, look at his face and deny him ANYTHING?The answer was, NO. No I could not look at his face doing that thing it does set to The National and deny him ANYTHING AT ALL EVER. Reese has enough issues on his own (YOU DESERVE A FOREVER HOME, JOHN, PLEASE BELIEVE THAT YOU DO), that I don't need to be going putting mine on him. And that was it forever. Much like that moment in canon where, in an instant, I went from 'eh, okay' to falling off the cliff of love and going splat into ALL THE FEELINGS, EVER about John Reese, I cliffed right into shipping it forever.
Damn you
sisabet.And you all? Go watch this vid right now. Now, I mean right now. Bring tissues.
And now I'm left trying to figure out if I can OT3 here (I get stuck on finding an in to Finch/Carter), or if I will just parallel ship. *throws hands up*
NOTHING JOHN REESE, I WOULD DENY YOU AND YOUR FACE NOTHING.
Seriously, watch the vid.