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My mood is so much better right now. It's weird, 'cause what did it was what I thought was going to be some more wallowing, I went back and was rereading all my entries from this week two years ago. And the thing that kept coming up over and over is that what I wanted most was a chance. When things looked like there was a good possibility it would be the worst news, and doctors kept making that face at me, what I wanted was this.
To be sitting here NED two years later, knowing I'd thrown everything but the kitchen sink at it, and every day clear another day closer to the magic mark. Even if it comes crashing down, I got this much when I didn't think I would. That isn't anything to sneeze at.
Maybe my birthday won't suck quite so much after all. 'Cause motherfucker, I am still here.
To be sitting here NED two years later, knowing I'd thrown everything but the kitchen sink at it, and every day clear another day closer to the magic mark. Even if it comes crashing down, I got this much when I didn't think I would. That isn't anything to sneeze at.
Maybe my birthday won't suck quite so much after all. 'Cause motherfucker, I am still here.
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Here's hoping the month continues to improve! If you have internet and want to be distracted, I'm usually lurking around on IRC or AIM or just obsessively checking for DW/LJ comments. Feel free to poke me any time.
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I need to start trying to revive #vidding at some point. Usually if you remind people it is there they show up, but for some reason it dies without active nurturing.
Am watching kiddies tonight, but I think I will make a post to the vidding comms tomorrow being all HI! COME CHAT ABOUT VIDDING AND STUFF...get things going again.
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