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I have officially given up on my CVV vid. For reasons which are almost certainly entirely in my head I could not get around the knots I was tying myself up into over it. I have a bunch of vids in the line that I'm similarly getting nowhere with. The vid I'm actually making progress on and that is not causing me to hate myself? The season 5 Eleventy vid I started two days ago just because. So that's what I'm working on.
At this point I'm not sure what I'll do for Premieres, since the Buffy vid (though I really want to make it at some point) is in the pile of vids that are making me feel bad about myself. I don't want another year of not having anything at Vividcon, so I will come up with something. But I think it is going to be whatever organically appears in the timeline finished in time, and not what I have 'decided' to do.
My best vidding experiences almost always come from randomly opening a timeline when I think 'omgosh, I really wanna do this' and have little to nothing to do with outside pressures or expectations. I keep forgetting that. I need more fannish creativity along the lines of randomly catching an episode of Little House on the Prairie and being caught up in the notion that barely legal true love NEEDS a vid, rather than trying to force things just because I've determined that I should for whatever reason.
Now I'm gonna go spend the rest of today looking at Eleventy's faaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaace on the timeline. If it turns into a finished vid? Awesome. If it turns into a finished vid before the premiere of the new season renders it irrelevant? Even better. If it does neither of these things? Well, fuck, I got to sit and spend the day looking at the faaaaaaaaaaaaaace, and that is a win.
At this point I'm not sure what I'll do for Premieres, since the Buffy vid (though I really want to make it at some point) is in the pile of vids that are making me feel bad about myself. I don't want another year of not having anything at Vividcon, so I will come up with something. But I think it is going to be whatever organically appears in the timeline finished in time, and not what I have 'decided' to do.
My best vidding experiences almost always come from randomly opening a timeline when I think 'omgosh, I really wanna do this' and have little to nothing to do with outside pressures or expectations. I keep forgetting that. I need more fannish creativity along the lines of randomly catching an episode of Little House on the Prairie and being caught up in the notion that barely legal true love NEEDS a vid, rather than trying to force things just because I've determined that I should for whatever reason.
Now I'm gonna go spend the rest of today looking at Eleventy's faaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaace on the timeline. If it turns into a finished vid? Awesome. If it turns into a finished vid before the premiere of the new season renders it irrelevant? Even better. If it does neither of these things? Well, fuck, I got to sit and spend the day looking at the faaaaaaaaaaaaaace, and that is a win.