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Good morning my peoples! Did not get a twitter yesterday (or go look at, I think I might already have one I've been ignoring). That is still on the list for today. I did get a bunch of vid projects organized and went through them, and right now I'm thinking that despite my enthusiasm the Eleventy Project is not looking good, or at least not in the same episode(s) air--->vid same week format will happen. Last year I chose Eleventy over finishing a Vividcon vid for Premieres and I do not regret it, but I don't want to go two years in a row without one...stupid scheduling conflicts. I do still have my season 5 epic vid which I plan on working on. And if I can work in episodic vids for this season I will, but I have no clue when they will show up. Bummer.
I continue to pinball around what vid I will be finishing for Premieres. I've changed my mind a million times, and thought I'd finally settled on something...but now that I'm working on it the source quality issues have me second guessing. ARGH. I seem to be in the most scattered vidding phase ever, with 6 (or is it 7?) half started vids on my hard drive, none of which I seem to be able to actually, y'know, finish. It's frustrating. Not as frustrating as not being able to vid at all, but finishing something would be nice.
It is weird. When I'm in a highly productive mode, finishing lots of vids it is weirdly less pressure on current projects. Like, if I finish six vids in as many months, and I am really proud of one and some are good enough and one I am disappointed in...the next vid up can be whatever. When there are no vids finishing, then the one I'm working on feels like it has to be awesome because it feels like the only thing representing me out there. Which leads to anxiety, which leads to it being harder to finish, which ups the self inflicted pressure to be awesome even more. This is very, very silly. Why is this my hobby again?
I continue to pinball around what vid I will be finishing for Premieres. I've changed my mind a million times, and thought I'd finally settled on something...but now that I'm working on it the source quality issues have me second guessing. ARGH. I seem to be in the most scattered vidding phase ever, with 6 (or is it 7?) half started vids on my hard drive, none of which I seem to be able to actually, y'know, finish. It's frustrating. Not as frustrating as not being able to vid at all, but finishing something would be nice.
It is weird. When I'm in a highly productive mode, finishing lots of vids it is weirdly less pressure on current projects. Like, if I finish six vids in as many months, and I am really proud of one and some are good enough and one I am disappointed in...the next vid up can be whatever. When there are no vids finishing, then the one I'm working on feels like it has to be awesome because it feels like the only thing representing me out there. Which leads to anxiety, which leads to it being harder to finish, which ups the self inflicted pressure to be awesome even more. This is very, very silly. Why is this my hobby again?
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